Nighttime Battles

Why is it we cave and do things we’ve told ourselves we won’t? Reasoning is a trait that distinguishes us from animals, or is it ignoring reasoning that is the determining factor? Wait...now I have to know. What is the difference between instinct and reasoning?

See what happens when I awaken after five hours of sleep, my resolve withering as I open the laptop? To soothe my guilt, I fumble for the switch to dim the blinding glare and cram another pillow behind me so I won’t slouch. My brain stops fussing because it knows I am beyond listening to reason. After all, five hours of uninterrupted sleep was a luxury in the days of rising and shining to perform chosen professional duties. So, a few minutes to check Facebook in the middle of the night...not a big deal.

But it is. It’s ALWAYS major because I don’t float through social media in a dreamy state chuckling at fluff and awwing at cute cat photos...well...I don’t do ONLY that. I read seriously impactful articles by experts like one I got tangled up in last night on fashion habits that make one look old...er. For instance: don’t wear too-tight trendy pieces, but don’t wear baggy, dated ones either; wear makeup, but not too much, and make sure the shade is not antiquated; same with hosiery - flat not shiny, darker but not like tights; hairstyles should not be puffy, and long is okay, but not too long; jeans are fine (whew). The experts wasted my time on shoes. My feet do not function if I ignore their preferences. Time on accessories also unnecessary because being too matchy-matchy is not a concern of mine. I get a natural high finding an identical pair of earrings. And don’t even attack my bling. I will wear it if I want to, and on any kind or size of purse I decide.

“Instinct seems adapted merely to the purpose of animal existence, while reason is an attribute of progressive mind.” Henri Bergson perhaps